Saturday, August 21, 2004
Short stories With Tragic Endings
- Cherry kiss -
I got my hair cut Today and I'm not gonna tell anyone How cause' I want everyone to have This big surprise face when they see me :D. It felt good to have a change . . Even though it's just a hair cut it Makes things seem a little Lighter . . I saw Cindy Today!! We danced around her porch For my hair lol .. Yeeeaaa ..
I think the whole Thing with Me thinking I couldn't like anyone was because I hadn't found the Right guy .. But now that I did he's taken : / .. Figures right? O well .. I guess whatever happens .. Happens<3
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Wednesday, August 18, 2004
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- Beautiful,Beautiful -
Not much happened today, Uhh I went back to school and Had a SHIT LOAD of homework to do. I saw a couple people. Talked. Pretty much a normal schedule. Uhh .. Kate and Rachel were supposed to come down today But kate had To go to the psychiatrist With savanna So rachel couldn't come, that sucked .. Idk I'm not really in a Good mood . People have too much Middle school Drama : /.
-Jenn
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Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Is God really this Bored?
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- The beautiful People -
Ugg.. Still sick ( Woo Hoo ) I bet i've missed a shit load of work .Bleh. That sucks , O well. It's been fun staying home and being Useless : ) . . Yesterday was a really shitty day though After everyone got home .. I guess it's life though .. I went to the doctor today and they gave me these pills that are pretty much as big as my thumb >:0 There fuckin hard to Swallow! My blog is still jacked up So in case you were wondering why no Pictures or colors were on it's because my computers gay. I'm gonna try and do better Though on keeping up with this thing, It gets a lot of my emotions out .. As odd as That sounds. ErrR . . I keep coughing :( and I still sound like A little boy going through puberty. This is poo . Well I guess .. Not much else to write, Later.
I hope you choked on every Word you spoke
When you were screaming at me and realized how many times i've tried
But that's just wishful thinking
All i want is an apology for what you did
And how you treat me
I hope you choke on every word you said <3
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Monday, August 16, 2004
Rain, Rain go Away .. All the World is waiting For the Sun
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I'm so stupid, I thought I could have feelings for Someone again, But I cant. You can't have feelings For someone when you know all your going to End up doing Is hurting him, And him as one of my bestfriends I can't do that no matter How much I care for him. I love him enough to know I can't be that girl .. Because I'm a screw up, And once a screw up, Always a screw up. I wish it was Easy for me to Change into Girlfriend material, But I'm never going to be. I'll always be scared about falling to Deep to get up off my knee's Again .. I can't pin My heart back up again, It was hard enough the first time. And now I'll watch my bestfriends Be happy And content with Love, And I'll watch him fall in Love with someone that Can treat him as good as He'll treat her. It's a lot to give up , But when you care so Much for someone , Some things are just not an option. I've seen what love Does to people, It makes them so stupid and So blind. It makes them think nothing Will ever go wrong In there beautiful relationship, But in the flick of A wrist all Things change And hate takes place of Something that used to be so Wonderful. I'm not saying I know what the Deepest hurt for everyone is, But I know what my deepest hurt has been, And unfortunatly It came from love. Maybe in time I'll learn, Or something will happen to make me see some things in a different light. All I know is I can't do it know, I can't be scared everyday About what I'm going to do To make things go Wrong. When I see one of my Friends go into a relationship, In a certain way I am jealous Because I can admit that I'll never have that. I'll never be able to feel for Someone like that. My stories are better left Unfinished
</3
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Posted at 08:31 am by My_Bitter_Pill
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Sunday, August 15, 2004
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How do people say Things that are so Intense . . But act like as if It's like saying What's up? They act like it's not Going to effect you at all .. And toss around the words " I love you " Get a clue guys - That's supposed to mean something - If they don't mean anything to you why Bother saying them? Why bother wasting useless words on False emotions just to get a fuck Or just to make someone happy Or to like you more Or to boost your Ego because you think it will make them Crazy for you? How can words be so useless and so powerfull at the same time .. It's kind of like a north pole and a south pole .. if there Opposite they'll attract but not Two north's ( Two people meaning it ) attract .. And if you think about It not even a simple Hug from a friend or a Kiss from your Biggest crush means something true .. For all you know it Could have been a dare or a Joke .. Why can't people mean Things ? Why can't we all stop worrying about What makes you look Cool .. And care about someone Besides yourself , But it's not like my words will change anyones opinions because that's how Powerless words are .. Like don't go . . Or I'm sorry </3
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Friday, August 13, 2004
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The week was okay I guess . . I mean school isn't That hard for eighth .. The drama started up again - Hip , hip , HOORAY! - ~ Cough~ right? So ne way . . People ve' been buggin Me about making a New blog but I really don't know what else To put . . Not anything I can say without Getting in trouble for it . . So I guess Later ?
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Monday, August 09, 2004
- Pretty Girl -
School is off to A good start . . I got a pretty good team .. Not the exact team I wanted, but Pretty good . . Anything else I wanna say is in My other journal that only Cindy can read . . Because I do not feel like expressing them to you .
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Sunday, August 08, 2004
IT'S CHRISTA-BISTA'S BIRTHDAY !!!!!!!iiiiiii!!!!!!!!iiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!
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Saturday, August 07, 2004
You fuck It up Half the Time
- Firefly -
Alright Lemmings you think Being Atheist or Being a Whore or a Pot addict Or if you drink it'll make you so fuckin cool? News Flash, Last time being cool wasn't wasting your life Away like everyone else following everyone's footsteps but yet denieing with the o so Common quote " I'm Individual " O yea let's all be punk and Gothic in Our black chanined uniforms ! You think your hardcore cause you listen to Artists with no talent screaming about how Horrible there rich and famous lives are ? You think it makes you cool Cause you can call someone a Poseur because there exactly like you ? Or how about being rebelious because You do some dumbass Thing that Doesen't envolve thinking ? Rebelious for you lemmings Would be to drop the Crack pipe and Get an A .. That used to be Regular for people And now it's so un cool to show potential or So dorky to raise your hand in class and Have a well thought out answer .. You think your cool and punked out Because your in with a Crowd thats going no where? I bet it's fun Having your bong In one hand and Your beer In the other , That sounds complicated . O so now your Punk because your wardrobe consists Of black and Red? You know the original punks Were people from the castle ages When They would put people in latrine holes While people used them until they died from The Fumes ? Ha .. I guess the "punks" really are full of shit?
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Friday, August 06, 2004
Bold all that apply.
01. I have asthma.
02. I'm obsessed with Jelly Bracelets.
03. I think I was a mistake. Damn parents forget to use a condom.
04. I broke my collar bone when I was a baby.
06. I have passed out 5 times in my life from drinking.
07. I obsess over everything.
08. I rock back and forth when I'm nervous.
09. I still don't have any idea what I want to do when I'm older.
10. I'm disappointed in myself for fucking up school.
11. I don't take medications but I probably should.
12. I love seeing people laugh.
13. I wish I wasn't an EC musician.
14. I was born in Cleveland, Ohio.
15. I have a really hard time trusting people.
16. I love my best friend more than I love any other person.
17. I love sleeping past noon.
18. My birthday is September 20th.
19. I wish someone would call me.
20. I think drugs are stupid but I did them anyway.
21. I dislike myself.
22. I make a lot of mistakes.
23. I have a messy room.
24. I see things in a different perspective.
25. I want to live with my best friend in a weird painted apartment filled with our... weird personalities.
26. I hate high school.
27. I very rarely have to pee.
28. I am a night owl.
29. I care about people more than they realize.
30. I am heartbroken.
31. I love movies.
32. I wish I was an orphan.
33. I'm picky about people.
34. I have a sore back.
35. It bugs me when people are stubborn. Even though I am.
36. I try to forgive but never forget.
37. I have been in love.
38. I want to be a better musician.
39. I wish I had something better to do than this.
40. I love you.
41. I really enjoy thoughtful gifts, even if they cost nothing.
42. I hate surprises.
43. I still love my sister even though she is an asshole.
44. My pillow is a close friend of mine.
45. I don't like being complimented but it makes my day brighter none-the-less.
46. I think that the drinking age should be 18.
47. I love Heaven, even though I haven't been there yet.
48. I never know how to accept compliments.
49. I love being alone.
50. I sometimes get along with boys much better than girls.
51. I hate awkward silences.
52. I love when people think I'm weird.
53. I love my friends.
54. I have a hard time letting people get close, because I fear they'll leave soon.
55. I wish I was a good person.
56. I HATE being stared at.
57. I'm not as happy as people think I am.
58. Girls always think I hate them.
59. I hate clothes.
60. I'm easy to please.
61. I can't cook for shit.
62. I dont know my own effect on people.
63. I want to visit the make-up Drivers Ed class because I promised them I'd stop by.
64. My neck's sore.
65. My dreams are fucked up.
66. I rarely show my true emotions.
67. I have done the Las Ketchup dance before.
68. I hate when my nose is runny.
69. Friends have fallen for me.
70. I have a few best friends.
71. I think jellyfish are scary.
72. I can make people laugh, but I don't mean to...
73. I love many different kinds of music.
74. I always sing along with music in the car.
75. I hate ghost stories. They scare me!
76. I wish I didn't have to grow up.
77. I love my family most of the time.
78. I try not to over-analyze things. [doesn't work]
79. I laugh at dead baby jokes.
80. I come off as weird.
81. I never express my feelings to people.
82. I wish someone was still here.
83. I'm too self-critical.
84. I would like to stay alone in my room forever.
85. I hate having regrets.
86. I hate complaining but I do anyway without realizing it.
87. I only cry when I'm really really sad.
88. I hate when people say "OMG Just Kidding"
90. I think Kate Winslet is a dyke.
91. I love ice.
92. I love eating things that are bad for me.
93. I go to bed at 11:30pm.
94. I used to work nowhere.
95. I have never been to another country.
96. I can lose my temper very easily.
97. I don't know how to deal with a lot of stuff.
98. I dream about death every night.
99. I'm sensitive.
100. I hide emotions.
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