- Away -
 
   My blog is being completly Gay so I can't put pictures or Anything on here Until i figure out Whats wrong With it .. Anyway .. I found out who my teacher was yesterday Mr. Turnham .. Last year of middle school .. Ahh scary .. It feels kinda like I'm growing up too fast .. Like I'm supposed to be taking care of More than just my Life .. But things are Getting better in some Parts , Sort of .. I'm figuring out who my real Friends are .. And who are Backstabbers and unsteady ones, I have someone I really feel For .. But theres something missing .. Like theres this huge gap in my Life and heart and I don't know what it Is that needs to be There , Maybe it's going away from the Beach .. I had no problems there and I could do anything I wanted and I didn't have people yelling at me or just talking to me Because they wanted me to fix there problems .. Me and Alyssa could go outside at Anytime and Just walk on the beach .. See Brandon and Dallas .. Look up at the sky ..  And nothing was wrong and It didnt feel like Anything was Missing .. Then I got home .. And I didn't want to be here .. It's a scary feeling when you Don't want to come back to somewhere you've lived for a long time .. I'm not even really looking forward to school .. Why go back to an endless line Of lemmings and " Unique's" in Uniform  .. Why go back to all That drama and heartbrake ?

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-Simple Design-

I think for the first Time in four months I'm not at all Scared to let go.. Maybe I never Was in the First place.. Maybe it's just the fact I had made memories with him .. And he changed and so did they .. Maybe all along I missed seeing him hurt .. I missed seeing him tear to peices .. That's what it was all along .. He told me that it would all End alright .. He's a liar .. A defensless liar.. a pitty case.. He's so pitiful .. In his little land of Make-beleive.. I wish I could see him die inside again.. I wish I could just see the hate in his eyes.. Because maybe Then I could Relate to what He was doing .. I could relate to feeling Love turn bitter.. And kisses turned sour but Why would He care? He's got everything he's ever wanted..
                                                                                                                     
All I can remember is him Laying his Heavy head on My heart .. And then realizing I was loosing him Again .. Thanking him for meaning his Kiss .. And Him telling me I shouldn't have .. And now I know he's right .. But I was dedicated to the End ..

Finally He let me out </3 Let me Belong here                                
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  - Attached At the Hip -

 I got My tumor taken Out today .. So so Sad .. I bossed all the nurses around, " Go get me coke " O wait no I'm alergic to sugar" " Bring me a popcicle " - I love Popcicles : ) - Lol it was fun Except for The fact I had Mrs. Insane Mother  feeding pitty into My poor defenseless Body as I watched Roseanne And ate my Popcicle :'( Can you beleive Her? So They took me into this Room with Big bright lights and this lady Asks me How many Boyfriends I have .. I told her 50 and she gave me a strange look .. The Room had very bright lights in a numerous Herd of different Shapes.. It was like I was a Deer .. Then I woke up and I had these tube things in My nose and I about had a hernia Cause I got up so fast for I thought I had a gigantic fly Stuck up my nose .. So now I am back and I am waiting for the most BEAUTIFUL person in the world -|- Drum Roll -|- CINDY CARTER! She's bringing me Baaaaloooonnss Hehehe were Helium suckers .. Well I'm off To play with my Crutches more.. Later dude people

                                                             
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 - Palm Trees And Power Lines -

Just got Back from Alyssa's . . . It was quite fun Over there - Always is .. Stupid kid Got home yesterday Ugg, Well I had a Good Week so I guess those will Come around every Five blue Moons right? Not that long .. I don't have to go to my moms today : ) Dude the new Sugarcult CD kicks ASS .. I'm kinda shaky about the surgery tomorrow.. I won't be able to walk .. heh heh heh .. Order people around.. Thats why im gonna Get Cindy to Come over .. To Boss her Around and Listen to her talk about Ian : ) Yay ! The new Matchbook Romance CD is pretty Good too .. Well I think I'm gonna go do that thing that Smart people do .. Think .. And make fun of it .. Because.. I need to think.. And... Yea.. Okay.. So .. Later


                                                                  
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- - Liars and Lovers - -

Woah.. I woke up at 3 Today .. It's the record for this summer :D Well not much has happened in the past hour and half that I've been alive.. I COULD be talking to Cindy but O no! She has to go to Valdosta.. Stupid Idiot.. I need to talk to you really bad Cindy so when you come Home CALL ME! Idk how I feel really.. Like he's still in my head but not like he used to be and it's so weird.. Because what I thought to be the greatest thing in the world a few months ago is now one Of the most horrible and waste's of time in the World .. I don't even feel like it Ever happened.. It's like it was Just a dream, I hate middle school .. All your friends backstab you as do boyfriends .. It's an endless battle of trying to fit in.. At least for most people .. I could care less about it .. The friends I have are the only ones I need so Who gives If my best friend is the most popular shit head in the world? No one.. Being popular is so over rated .. But o well it's not Like typing that would help Anything.. My stupid Tagboard messed up so I don't now how To get it off Fucking Comic Sans AAAAAAAHHHHH Stupid Blogdrive.. Nah! Pudding Died today : ( My lovly snake is dead. This day has to be the suckiest day in the WORLD I just woke up and I went to pick him up.. and he just fell over my hand.. Well I'm off to give him a barriel now.. : ( So sad ..

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Alright So haven't written in two days . . . Basically Tuesday I went to the movies With Ben, Alyssa , Saybra , Donny , Jack , and Jack's make-out buddy. After that I went to Alyssa's house and Saybra was there .. so .. you figure out how that went.. Then the next day me and Lyss cleaned like crazy psycho's so people could make her move >:o So not cool We went to go look at house's in Buford after it and then Came BACK to my house and Chizzilled  .. And then I got really happy cause Zack IMed me in like.. FOREVER so it was cool : ) Me and Alyssa just woke up . . . So I think were gonna go Chizzzill more with Some Music .
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