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  I'm so stupid, I thought I could have feelings for Someone again, But I cant. You can't have feelings For someone when you know all your going to End up doing Is hurting him, And him as one of my bestfriends I can't do that no matter How much I care for him. I love him enough to know I can't be that girl .. Because I'm a screw up, And once a screw up, Always a screw up. I wish it was Easy for me to Change into Girlfriend material, But I'm never going to be. I'll always be scared about falling to Deep to get up off my knee's Again .. I can't pin My heart back up again, It was hard enough the first time. And now I'll watch my bestfriends Be happy And content with Love, And I'll watch him fall in Love with someone that Can treat him as good as He'll treat her. It's a lot to give up , But when you care so Much for someone , Some things are just not an option. I've seen what love Does to people, It makes them so stupid and So blind. It makes them think nothing Will ever go wrong In there beautiful relationship, But in the flick of A wrist all Things change And hate takes place of Something that used to be so Wonderful. I'm not saying I know what the Deepest hurt for everyone is, But I know what my deepest hurt has been, And unfortunatly It came from love. Maybe in time I'll learn, Or something will happen to make me see some things in a different light. All I know is I can't do it know, I can't  be scared everyday About what I'm going to do To make things go Wrong. When I see one of my Friends go into a relationship, In a certain way I am jealous Because I can admit that I'll never have that. I'll never be able to feel for Someone like that. My stories are better left Unfinished </3